The Mysteries of Realisations

Hello People, it’s been a long time since I posted my last blog. “The Mysteries of Realisations” is a mystery of stranger’s life.

And it happened! It was not a poetry I wrote for someone who doesn’t even exist,
It was not a thought I got in the middle of my ways,
It wasn’t a philosophy I created or learned for myself,
It wasn’t the feeling I got for someone,
It wasn’t for someone I know,
It wasn’t like it was seeming. It was a mystery and better a mystery for the mysterious one where I am the mysterious one. I didn’t know that it will take me so high that I will forget the deepness but I didn’t know it either that it will make me fall and touch the profundity and yet it wasn’t core because as someone told me once “it is better to be on the surface.” It was a surface indeed but can you guess the deepness if you will catch the profundity on the surface?
The way it touched, hatred me, my every thought which was indeed for me was turning wrong, I lied for once then twice then I guess it became a hobby. Each time they asked or argued I simply lied and then they started getting it in the way it was seeming; again a wrong one. My mysteries were not enough that I made my thoughts more mysterious. I didn’t get it when it happened. Well, no one gets it when it happens so I was no different.
It was about the darkness I fought for.
It was about the sun I drowned for.
It was about the rays I tried to fetch and it was about the light; the love.
I tried, I tried it harder and harder. I don’t know what is wrong but I too have longings for light, the one people are making a mystery. I know you won’t get it and how will you get it is the biggest thing. I won’t tell you, and you will never ask me. See how amazing it is. There was a thought in my bio which says “you don’t know me but you’re about to” and it was there for quite a long time then there came the light, the light of socialisation and cherishing and being cherished so I changed it and it became “you don’t know me but you’re about to and once you will know me you will love too;” desperate indeed. But I knew and I know there are things I can bet you will love.
I laughed a lot when the realisation of life kissed me again. Moron was I. Things happens and it is really good to be socialised but it’s better to be in the dark because there are no longings and as the light rays get you the way to the source of life it starts hurting. I know offence and the better half you know and if you don’t, you will discover it by yourself because you can’t get it if it doesn’t happen to you. A great saying. But sometimes life teaches you a lot and a lot more than you can’t even think and it’s better to know but there comes my point “Realisation.”
The day you will realise the things, the day you will get knowledge about life, the day when you will see the real truth, it would be the last day of your life. And the real decay starts from the day you get acknowledged by the world. And the knowledge in some ways and better I can say in many ways outrages you, your kindness, your humanity, your attitude, your surrounding and the worse, it outrages your soul because everything comes from a soul and you start collecting the mistakes in your soul where the mistakes was there in the mystic world. And same I did but thanks to god I always have some courage hidden in the corners that always help me out from the lights of darkness. See, obsessed with my darkness. But I don’t love darkness neither I am used to it. I just have the realisation and as I said “realisation” it sucks. So, I changed my bio again with the realisation and it became “you don’t know me and you will never.” Because I am a stranger and there are things even mysterious to me and those are those I can’t write down here. And still, I am on the surface.

“With the realisation but with the courage too,
It’s all about the longings for that one you always try to find in cue,
It’s not about the darkness you live in,
It’s about the light you fetch, without burning your hands,
It’s not about getting cold blooded,
It’s about having the realisation of life and walking leaving the walls behind,
Because you are unstoppable and you can’t get fade.”

The more you will know the lesser you will live and if it’s so my doom’s day not so far (self-obsession)
With each and every realisation of life, you will find yourself nearer to the death because it’s the labyrinth of life and opposite attracts.

This is the first installment of the series “the mysteries of realisations.” The next blog will be published on next Saturday night. Till then, keep shining.

Yet I am confused

Hello, people. The stranger is here with a confused, a bit strange and a bit weird blog.
It started when I was in 6th. For the first time, I have made a science model.
Most of you guys judged me with my first sentence that how normal I am talking everyone could have done this. Yes, you all are right. There was a science model presentation for which my project didn’t get the appreciation either. I was supposed to be sad and I was. For a kid like me who rarely talk with people, it was quite unbearable but there was someone who was standing like a monolith. Who supported me through whole my journey. He was my dad. That day he told me one thing I remember the exact, it was, ‘we never fail son, we only win or get experience’. It was very deep thought for the kid studying in 6th standard. For the time, I managed to run through the time. The very next year again the competition held again my model was not selected but this time it was like normal for me to understand that there are so many people who stand above your life. Quite demotivating line but ok for the situation. Next year, again I created a model and as the last two years the thing I got was the failure but this I weren’t motivated nor demotivated, I just evolved myself that where the model is lacking. There is something which always leads me to the failure and what I found was shocking.
I failed every time because the thing I created was unique, it was enormous, complex for people and clearly not something mere. So, next time when I started working on a new project I tried to make it simple and as per the normal guidelines created by our respected freaking teachers but this time I was out from the competition because the category in which I was presenting the project was not the part of competition anymore. It took me four years to understand why I have got failed every time.
In 10th, finally, I got a chance to present my project from my school. In this attempt, I reached the maximum level of competition which was the national level science competition and secured the 2nd position there. I could be the first but there was an issue I can’t tell you right now.
If you are reached here, probably, you were thinking why this guy is spreading shit about his life. So, here I tell you my point. It took me 4 years and more to decide and clarify that I belong to the science stream. Science is my passion. I love to create, believe in practical. Yes, I do it today also. With average grades, I passed my 12th and opt for mechanical engineering.
In between those two years of life. I changed completely. A lot of stuff I have gone through. As a normal, I faced almost every situation sometimes softly sometimes hardly but it changed me again. It took me four years to select my loving stream and in 2years I got a new thing to be in. It was management and literature. I started taking part in and as managing body in events, curricular etc. I started reading novels. It was a new thing for me and I was enjoying it. As I reached the second stage I needed to decide for the next step. Which carrier do I choose? Should I prepare for GATE, CAT, GRE, GMAT, IES, etc. or should I do the thing I love the most? Again I needed to discriminate between two things management and literature.
Options always make your life simpler but in my case I want it to be précised and clear. I don’t like options but life always creates. Not everyone gets options in life. Not everyone gets an opportunity to choose what they want to do.
But it’s always difficult to choose between your priorities where you love two things the same.
And yet I am confused.

Colors of life

Hey guys, after a long span of time stranger is here with a new poem “COlORS of LIFE” 

Looking at the sky wishing for my angel I scorched my eyes by the tensed light of the sun…

When I woke I found myself tangled in the blue,

In the dearth of joy, I started looking for the red love…

No green in the life but behaving like the dove…

Engraving for the food 

I found Black and got banished for forbidden fruit…

Shaping the path again, I fall down to the earth. 

Kissed the dust and felt the gray…rising up after the failure I found the indigo.

It filled me with the zeal and powered me to let my falls go.. . .

While trying to fly, the shine bleached my eyes often. . .

But as the cloud appeared the darkness of shadow made it soften. 

Like the yellow, they supported me in my rise… 

Like a drastic thought of solitude, never to materialize.”

Description: It is a story of a bird who wish for his angel to come to him and adore him but while looking he faces the tormenting shine of sun which burn his eyes. He found himself in tantrum and sadness but with a desire of love. There was no greenery near him from which he can fulfill his life. Things he founds were not worthy enough. He didn’t give up and started looking for a path but he loses the battle again and touched the ground. Again sadness kissed him hard. He lost his small wings but he was determined to live and as get motivation from the shadows of cloud he founds solace and with a new zeal he starts trying to find out the reason for life. It is just a thought of aloofness.